Back to the basics
Current mood:

  Life is complicated, but my program doesnt have to be! Its scary how fast I can get caught up with life and all the bullshit of certain things.  All these things start happening in my life and I get so caught up with trying to do so much and do the right things that I begin to lose sight of whats really important. I begin to lose sight of the basics in my sobriety. I can only do my best and thats it. If I cant do something, then I just cant do it. Simple as that. I dont need to try more or harder. But thats a defect of mine and I know it and see how it manifests itself in my life.  And the scary thing is, is that I usually dont see this happening until It hits me hard and im miserable because of it. I need to realize that I need my meetings on a regular basis. I need to stay plugged into this program all the time. I need to work with others. I need to keep my spirituality strong and have complete faith that my higher power will see me through any situation If I just stay out of his way. I need to keep doing the footwork wich is necesary for an alcoholic like me to be happy. And thats just the way it is. I no longer have an obsession to drink or use wich is a miracle. But what I do have is a brain that will drive me away from the basics of this program,m and when that happens I become miserable. And if I stay miserable long enough it is only a matter of time before i have a bottle stuck to my face! I never want to go back to that.